Well it's almost been a year since that last post of mine. I must say a lot has changed and a lot has stayed the same...
Firstly I am most certainly not that closeted heart broken girl anymore, however I am still single but I have learned to love it. I am at a point in my life where I won't just take anyone just to have someone, like a did so many times last year. I learnt that it just worsened the heart ache.
My life went from a crazy whirl wind full of people and parties to a calm and happy existence with the people that really mattered all along. I really love these people and it's nice to know they love me too and that I can always count on them.
I still miss him at times, but I have finally broken off all contact with him, and it's turned what we had into a lovely memory that I will cherish forever. I actually saw him today briefly in the supermarket. He looks happy, and I am glad about that.
I was a very angry girl last year and I am happy to say that I have finally forgiven myself for the choices I made as an innocent, in love girl.
The woman I am now is so different from that one. I feel stronger and more confident in everything I do. I have learnt how to deal with the quietness of being alone at times, knowing that it is my choice and that it is the better choice for me.
And if the loneliness gets a bit too much I always have my best friend and family whom I can always count on to bring smiles to every occasion.
The most important lesson I have learnt in this year is that everything comes to those who wait, so I am waiting patiently for whatever awaits me and working hard at everything I love.
In conclusion, I am a much more stable person. I have not lost my unique weirdness, and I don't intend to. Through this whole experience I have learnt so much about myself, and for that I am ever grateful.
Hopefully I will be poring my soul out at more frequent intervals this year, but only time will tell...
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